So we tried to make it work for the 100th time in almost fucking 2 years. I just want to be done. I know we can’t fix it so why do I keep going back to this shitty ass situation and end up feeling like shit all over again. It logically doesn’t make any sense.  I just want to stop being bothered by thoughts of him. Even if it doesn’t hurt like it used to or even if I’m feeling okay some shit always comes up that reminds me of him. I wish I could erase him off my memories.  How can a mother fucker have time to hang out with my family, “train” all of the time, and date a fucking high school kid for a year?!

I mean I think it kills me that I thought so highly of him and he was more disappointing than I could ever fathom.